Sunday, January 29, 2012

Facing Life One Baby Step at a Time

I’m an impatient person. I don’t like waiting. So I do everything as fast as possible-- walking, speaking, working and general every day tasks and activities. So it seems for the past few years I’ve been living my life rushing through the day- just ready to get to the next. Somehow I assumed I’d get better and would be a better person. & I gave up on the things that don’t just change over night. Like taking the time to expand my talents. Or the time to deal with my past. Or my attitude toward Christ. The past few years have been full of small doses of “tries” and failed attempts. This led to disappointments and beggar prayers asking God to somehow make me try harder. To not give up. Yet I didn’t want to put in the time. I wanted overnight results. I wanted my life to be in order now. And if I failed at making that happen, there was always tomorrow. To try again. To give up. Repeat. I became indifferent. And I stopped being the person I know I can be- the person I’m meant to be.

Simply put, I stopped living my life with purpose and passion. And a few weeks before 2012 arrived, I knew I was done with the crap-- for lack of a better word. This new year, as cliche as it is, was the time for a fresh start. Things had to change. Things have to change. And that’s why this is the year of baby steps. This is the year of discipling myself and remaining focused. This is the year of listening to God and reading His Word. This is the year of waking up each day with purpose, training myself to have an attitude of one who’s walking with God. To not waste one day. To be aware of my words and actions, and the effect they have on people and myself. To put people before myself. To live out true love- slow to anger, causing no harm to others, not boasting, trusting, protecting, hoping. This is the year of doing, getting healthy, peace, strength, honor, love, hope, respect, discipline, obedience and perseverance. Cheers.

And 2012 is about being honestly open on The Owl Diary. Hold me accountable, mmk?


  1. oh dear, I do believe those few prayers I lifted for you are coming to life on this here blog! ha ha All those months of praying over whatever was going on with my blog sister Kristyna and I am blessed with this lovely paragraph.

    Sadly, yet at the same time fortunately, I can read your 2nd paragraph word for word and be speaking for myself.
    I got stuck in this weird state of falling short and praying for the LORD to change me, then I went to praying for the desire to change to finally being broken a couple of nights ago and fired from my job yesterday for the laziness that I had surrendered to.

    In utter brokeness though our God has managed to give me peace! So much peace.

    I'm going back to school and that is all He has really told me.
    BUt I know that I desire to move WITH the Lord this year and not get stuck on stupid again.

    I want to pray more, read more and most importantly FEAR AND LOVE Him more. OH, how I pray this for you too girl :).

    Love this post.

    Love you.

    Sorry if this was a mouthful.
    In my head I believe we are great friends. ha ha

    AND Taylor Swift sounded her best in SAFE AND SOUND I believe.
    Best to date.

    can't wait for thet treat of seeing THE HUNGER GAMES.

  2. Wow, that has to be the most intense resolution I've read so far. It sounds good though;)
    Just make sure you keep in mind that sometimes having a day to relax is good too, and not a waste of time per se;)

    Anyway, good luck with everything! I hope this will be a fantastic year for you!

  3. I'm so the same way.

    Basically, I suck.

    I wish you the best of the best for 2012! And as for me, I'm hoping I find myself improving little by little, just like you. Baby steps is right.

    Also, yes I was listening to the israel kamakawiwo'ole version! haha


  4. it's so hard to get out of that rut. right? thank you for giving others such encouraging words.

  5. This was really lovely, inspirational post full of thought. :) It was so nice to read!

    Thanks for your comment dear.
    I hope to see you back soon ^^

    Have a great day,
    - Indie by Heart

  6. You have got a brilliant blog! Great post too! Very inspired! You're pretty impressive! Looking forward to more posts and have a great week!!! :-) :-) :-)


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